DR. RUDORFER: Thank you.
Noah Wright Smith
MS. SMITH: My name is Noah Wright Smith
and I am a 15-year-old victim of legalized drug
abuse. My mother had me put on Ritalin when I was
5. I felt sick all the time on Ritalin and it was
just the beginning of bad things happening to me
because of drugs.
My grandparents won custody of me last
year. When they won, they got upset because I was
in bad shape and on a lot of drugs. They picked me
up at Broughton Mental Hospital in Morganton, North
Carolina, and learned I was on 1,000 milligrams of
drugs a day. In my lifetime, I have been on 16
psychotropic drugs including Zoloft, Paxil, and
Effexor, and all of them made me feel sick and do
very bad things.
I wasn't a bad kid. I was a badly abused
kid, abused by my mother and my stepfather. The
Department of Social Services knew I was being
abused, but they didn't do anything except put me
on more drugs.
The drugs made me sick and do bad things
like trying to stab my teacher with scissors.
Sometimes it made me want to kill my parents, and I
told them that, and was put in a mental hospital.
Some drugs made me have bad nightmares, so
I tried very hard not to sleep every night, so they
gave me drugs to make me sleep. Some of the drugs
made me want to kill myself. I couldn't stop
thinking about killing myself. When I told the
doctors, they sent me to still another mental
One day I tried to jump off a very high
railing to kill myself. I was put in a mental
hospital again for doing that, but I really wanted
to die. I really did want to, and I was so scared
and mad, too. In those mental hospitals, they kept
giving me more drugs, and I got depressed. I got
diabetes and high blood pressure.
My grandparents won my custody and took me
to a new psychiatrist. We have worked hard
together and he found I really don't need any
drugs. Last year he took me off all of them, one
at a time. No more nightmares or wanting to hurt
or kill other people, and I don't want to kill
Drugs almost ruined my life and almost
killed me. What about the kids that have to take
these drugs? I don't want kids to kill themselves.
Who is taking care of them? Who really cares about
us kids? I don't even know if you care, do you?
Somebody had better listen to kids who say the
medicines make them want to kill themselves, and
make them sick, and do bad things, because they are
telling you the truth.
Thank you for listening to me. Now,
please, help the other kids, so that they don't get
hurt by drugs, and so they don't kill themselves.
I almost killed myself and I am glad I am alive.